24 October, 2011

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Blog inspiration.

I've recently realised that, everywhere I go (bitches always know etc. etc. No.) I'm forever looking around for inspiration; things to write about, comment on, laugh over. I think that since my blog took such a dip and I've had to pick it up again I've become a lot more aware of the fact that there's so much to DO and SEE. Now, that makes me sound like a children's television presenter but NEVER FEAR. It's true! If you step outside your house this morning, pause for five seconds. Look around, try and notice something you haven't noticed before, or something that you've always overlooked. I think this, in part, is the reason we leave so much behind us, and take so much for granted. Does no-one else agree? Sometimes, and I know it's cliched, but sometimes if you're running through life to get to where you want to be, and never stopping, you miss out on the important things. Every once in a while, I stay grounded and just think about everything I have and everything I've done. It's also a great pick-me-up; next time, remind yourself of all the amazing things that you've done or that have happened to you. Make a list if you like. :)

15 October, 2011

''My heart's been displaced, I've got a crush on you''

Pfffffffffft. I've been reading too much Tumblr, and watching too much Nero. I mean, seriously. I can't help but get my head round the fact that, blase and 'tough' as I may appear, there's always the one thing that gets too much.

In other news, I had my first 'proper'

08 October, 2011

"Hello Siru."

Hello Siru.

Today so far has been...wierd. I feel like everyone is avoiding something, you know, talking about that one little thing. But, I can't see why. Megiushi wouldn't avoid anything and everyone loves Megi. I think that we're a little bit scared, really. Don't you, Siru? I mean, it isn't like I have anything to be frightened of. I'm under the Yashi League, like you right? Oh Siru, just come here and protect us like you promised. This isn't fair.

Yassi.

Hello. I'm sorry for the late reply. IN answer to your question, no, I am no longer under the Yashi League...do you not remember how I turned 17 this summer? And as for your final question...well, I am having to stay in Suchumara for a while yet. I will not be there, not for a long time. I can only apologise.

Siru, my darling Siru...

Let us not talk of war and separation any longer. I would accept even the least humble of apologies, if it was you who was offering. I will come and find you, Cousin Icki leaves Yarani tomorrow night and I shall travel with him...with him I shall be safe.

Yassi!

Do not move from where you are. The Yashi League caters only to followers of the faith, not strays and runaways. How could you endanger yourself like this?

Siru.

Oh darling, you are worth it.

Yassi...

You are not my problem. It is not just me you are endangering, but yourself, your family...if Oshiman finds you, you will cease to exist.

Siru.

Why do you profess not to understand my unconditional love for you? Unconditional isn't the word, I will gladly take death over a lifetime without you. Don't you love me?

Yassi.

I do not love you enough to merit this level of stupidity.

Oh Siru.

Just let me come and find you...everything will seem better when I am back where I truly belong...in your arms.

Yassi, no.

Shirigu Kio and Shiriga Gafu know not of this I assume? If not then I am evermore opposed to the idea. How could you expect me to defy my master? Your father is the only known reason I am still alive and replying to you, he taught me everything I know. I would never permit my own daughter to be stolen by my apprentice...

Siru,

They know not, you are quite right. But, it is too late. Cousin Icki and I have just passed Sasu, we will be with you at best by next moon. All contact from now on is pointless, I will not reply. Sweet dreams, love.

Yassi,

Oh my sweet, darling girl. Where are you now? Somewhere too great for me. You always were better than this world. But to say I could see you before you were gone, that has been life's greatest honour. Yassi, I am yours truly forever, hearing your sweet voice with only a true lover's ears, seeing your beautiful face with only a true lover's eyes, missing you with only a true lover's heart...regretting with only the passion

Religion is not legal tender.,

I was casually scrolling down my Facebook newsfeed when I came across a page I had obviously 'liked' a few eons ago. It was leading to an article on a website run by girls, for girls, encouraging teenagers to send in pictures of themselves, sans makeup. They would in turn be rewarded with an uplifting comment and a chance to express the features that they loved, without fear of judgement. This is what originally inspired me to click on the link, and scroll through the various photos until I noticed a pattern; each girl had included the pre-requisite 'What I like about Me'...and then a message about Jesus, God or a combination thereof. This at first puzzled me; I assumed it was merely coincedence, until I spotted a featured video in the sidebar; vilifying Cosmo magazine for being outrageous and Kim Kardashian for having no morals. This got the wheels turning and the suspicions rising, until I realised that, yes, this was an entirely praise-de-lawd website. And, to the creator's credit, I did continue to read the articles purely for entertainment purposes, until I stumbled across one about Lady Gaga; apparently, the way she dresses and the lyrics in her songs disallow her from saying that she is Catholic, and she is not worth of Jesus' love. This is the only reason that I did what I did, because at this point I believed the creator was not using the Internet to spread her love and Faith in Christianity and in Jesus and God, but using it to discriminate against people who 'weren't worthy'. So, this had to be said.

Dear Nicole,

First of all, I would like to compliment you; I think essentially it's fantastic that a girl such as you holds such strong values, to go as far as publishing them on line and, to your credit, gaining, from what I can gather to be a rather large following. Undeniably, you inspire numerous teenage girls, which is what I think your original intentions concerning this website were. However, from what I can gather from spending a not-inconsiderable amount of time browsing your articles with growing interest, I can now safely state my opinion.
Personally, I think that a lot of what you are doing is no better than vilifying Cosmopolitan magazine. I believe that you hold very valuable Christian faith and I appreciate that; but, quite frankly, how dare you broadcast these opinions in such a manner as to brainwash these teenagers yourself. Lady Gaga, whom you declare ''She, like many entertainers feels lofty and righteous...'' sounds not dissimilar to your actions and words. You use your religion, your faith in God and Jesus, as an excuse to be nasty, sanctimonious and deliberately influential as you know that your following is largely a fan base with a huge amount of trust. I do not believe that God in any way would have you spread His message at all like this. You are rude, you are manipulative and you are degrading and ridiculously judgemental to people who don't fit in with your PERSONAL views of the perfect person. Whoever said you had to dress modestly, and save yourself for marriage, and abstain from buying Cosmopolitan magazine unless you are over the age of 18, in order to be loved by God? I thought that He loved everyone...we are individual, unique and all made with intention, so according to the Bible.
This brings me to my next point; you misquote numerous Bible passages throughout your website, in order to further prove your misleading, misguided, poorly constructed points. The Bible is clearly outdated, and you cannot be expected to live your life according directly to it. If you read it, you would find that many of its points are contradictory, making it physically and mentally impossible to live your life by it. Your expectations are unfair, and for you to foist your own personal, condescending opinions upon impressionable people is not in any way according to the Christian faith.
If you say you love God and Jesus, far be it from me to disagree; I believe you completely. However, I do not believe you are in any way acting upon God's will.

To conclude, as you have no doubt gathered by now, I am in no way religious; I am not a Christian, nor do I believe in any higher power. Notwithstanding this, I do however have a few fundamental beliefs that I hold dear to me, as I am sure you can understand. As I am not religious, I can't begin to comprehend the relationship that you feel you have with God; and in many ways, I do believe that you are acting with the best possible intentions. However, if all Christians should live according to your rules and your delusions to gain love and acceptance, then I hold no faith whatsoever towards God, or Jesus.

Yours faithfully,
''scare-bear''.


Please feel free to visit the website, http://www.projectinspired.com and let me know what you think. In no way am I trying to influence you...far be it from ME to foist my judgement upon you. However, I wish the same could be said for ''Nicole''.

Religion is not about being better than someone, or being worthy of God's love and living your life through the Bible, to the letter. Religion is about being aware of a higher power, having faith and trust in someone or something to always love you, and even though I'm not religious, I respect peoples' faith. What I abstain from respecting, however, is when people use their faith as currency.

L'histoire de la centurie vingt.

Heheh. Don't know why I opened with that, sorry. Probably not appropriate for this kind of topic really. See, earlier when I was drawing a family tree, I needed something to lean on, and then realised (that's realiSed, not realiZed, thank you, stupid Mr. iPhone and your stupid American corrections...slightly 'tail wagging the dog'-ism is it not?) that the leaney-thing was my Dad's casual book of the 20th century. So, I started reading...ahh, you guys know me; at breakfast, I'll read an Ocado receipt as long as it has legible writing on it. And I read, and read, and read; at first I was just looking for anything ground-breaking that happened on my birthday (nothing as of yet, but I'm only on 1968...) but then I started actually reading it. And I realised that, bar the two World Wars and the aftermath of them, I knew practically nothing about the world's history, before my birth. I hate ignorant people, and I had never bothered to research beyond the year of 1996? BEEEEETH. Hyprocritical. *shakes head*. And...I LEARNT STUFF! For example, I had no idea that Mahatma Ghandi was assassinated in the '40's, nor that Elvis signed up to join the US. Army. I loved reading it all, because I started remembering more things that I'd learnt in History last year especially (in my school, you only learn about new-history just before GCSE year, probably to sway you into choosing History for GCSE...didn't work though.), like the fact that a particular speech given just after the news concerning the assassination of the Archduke Franz Ferdinand and his wife Sophie had gone public. The Serbian nationalists had 'won' and there were speeches of triumph being given all over Austria-Hungary. In a lesson, I saw a clip of one such speech, in that funny, black and white and sped-up way that all old films are shot. The speaker was driving the crowd into rather the frenzy, and obviously as there wasn't any sound we couldn't hear the cheering and agreement...but you could definitely feel it. And, as the clip was paused (and this was deliberate, this isn't something exclusive that I've discovered), the camera zoomed in on the grainy footage and, captured forever in a red ring, was Adolf Hitler. I don't know why I was so surprised, the speech was in Austria...small country, small world. No, I jest...actually, I do know why I was surprised. It's because that was a kind of, 'defining history' moment for me. The kind that sends gut-wrenching chills down your spine because you know what's coming next. It's like my post from about half a year or so ago...the one about reading the emails between an ex boyfriend and I, reading them as a story but knowing what happens at the end. It was really strange, knowing that that speech and the forthcoming war could've been the final triggers in Hitler's life that set off his path of destruction. That speech could have, (very unlikely but still...) COULD HAVE created the horror of the Holocaust. How scary is that?

I'll leave you with this...
How scary is it to think that every second, minute, hour...every single day of our lives we can know someone and at the same time have no clue. Really? How strange could that possibly feel? It only takes one hyped-up moment, one feeling of crown mentality to drive someone over the edge of morality...
This leads me to my next post rather neatly; how power always corrupts.
Heh!