29 November, 2011

Being vain about it.

So yep. Just broke up with my boyfriend and you know what? To hell with pride and dignity, I'm hurting so I'll damn well write a post if I want to.

Twenty months. All it took was a few jumbled words to end all of that; I'd even planned what I was going to say. Something along the lines of, ''I'm trying the whole letting you go idea. If you come back to me, you're mine. If you don't, thanks for the best eighteen months of my life.'' (yep, the past two months have been a total write-off...I don't count them as a relationship...which, I suppose, is why it ended).
People have heard about it. News travels fast when you're needlessly panicking in the school Hub space :L and, I don't mind. Not really, I don't relish it but I understand why people want to know. We'd earned the reputation for being the strongest, longest-standing couple in school. And now? That's gone.

And I suppose, it's difficult to explain fully why. I've been asked by a lot of people what triggered it, why today in particular. I suppose the final trigger was last night, when we had the brief conversation about what we wanted. That was the weakest possible conversation two people could ever hold, and I guess something just died then. :L I think we both knew it was over, and had been for a while. I don't know why it was so difficult to let go. Even now, once it's over, I'll cry for no reason. Try and rid myself of the memories, of any trace that he ever existed. But, it's teenage drama, you know? I am only fifteen, not even a quarter of my life has been lived yet and I have so, so much to look forward to.

It's just hard right now. Thank you so much, to every single person who gave me a kind word or a hug today. I feel guilty being so upset, but I figure I can't help it, so.
And, thank you to the best friends possible any girl could wish for...Amber, the one who brings me her fit uncle's hoodie for me to wear, and buys me food that I love. Nina, the one who makes me laugh so hard, and forces me to look forward to all the lessons and plans we have together. And Millie, the girl who had let my horrible tears wash down her front for the past month, give or take; without you guys, I would not be okay.

I love you all!

26 November, 2011

Eating Indian food with chopsticks.

Reading Tumblr obsessively, refusing to use it.
Being lonely, and liking it.
Pretty bracelets that say nasty things.
Walking in high heels, falling over in Converse.
Never re-reading what I've written.
Not trying, scoring high.
Running everwhere except in P.E.
Exceptionally hyper when I'm tired.
Feeling my most relaxed when I'm casually cycling at 300mph.
Getting Twitter BEFORE Facebook.
Loving photos I take myself. Hating ones taken by proffessionals.
Being my most witty and talkative online.
Dreaming about waking up.

I love my life; it's just one big motherloving contradiction. :L

21 November, 2011


Okay, so this isn't what a lot of you probably think this is about. This post is about a guy who goes by the name of 'D.D' (blog; http://dimitridr.blogspot.com/) and recently, he's become one of my closest friends. I've known him for about three years now, and I've spoken to him on and off, over MSN and such, because it was a random add a few years back that sparked it. But, since the beginning of Year Ten and, more particularly, CCF, I got to know D.D a lot better, and we've become really close in the past month or so; we've helped each-other through friend, family and relationship problems and as a result have become so much closer than I could ever have guessed. :) CCF is really what brought us together, and already we've got so many awesome memories! :) all of our mutual friends are also becoming closer to me, which I really love; this is expanding my friendship circle in the happiest possible way! I love how fast I've gotten to know D.D and I really appreciate him being there for me, through thick and thin, tears and tantrums, the good times and the bad. :) one last thing; anything he does in the future? Look out for those initials because, I'll tell you this, he'll be amazing. Whatever he does, D.D will be HUGE. :D

20 November, 2011

Promo's and thank-you's.

Overnight, ten people have liked my Facebook page and November has quickly become the highest-viewed month in the history of WoB...57 people viewed my most recent post within the first hour. Before I go on, I should say that it's not all about the pageviews, you're correct...however, it is about getting my message out there. Maybe not worldwide but certainly locally. And it makes me really happy to see that there are actually real people from around the world, from distant countries, reading my blog. Not just friends and family although, I think that's appreciated the most, so, thank you guys!
Firstly, I'd like to promote the blogs of a few people who, I think, have either started to show how determined they are, or how much time, care, love and attention has been put into their blogs, their 'babies', I think a couple of them called it.
Not everyone of these people has asked me to promo, I've done a discreet little blog tour; remember, this isn't just Blogspot, but WordPress and Tumblr too.

http://dimitridr.blogspot.com/ This guy recently started his blog and already his posts are fluid and emotional, making for a really interesting time reading.

Although she doesn't post on it much, this girl has posted some really amazing stuff here in the past, I love her themes.

http://stonedonabridge.blogspot.com/ Still a regular poster, this girl is something to look out for- posts that are funny, in-depth and true to life are the main theme of this blog.

http://pensandpretentions.blogspot.com/ Again, not quite as regular, this girl has an extraordinary grasp of the English language, and can happily create poetic masterpieces in little under ten minutes.

http://www.thepropertyspeculator.co.uk/ My Daddy's website, this blog has been the most polished, proffessional thing about the web that I've seen in quite a long time...enough to give anyone an interest in planning permission and the Fundamentals of Property Speculation and suchwith.

http://www.fashion-bake.com/ This is absolutely beautiful. Every single post is sent with care and attention to detail, it's like reading someone's beautiful mind!

http://stupidteenagedreams.tumblr.com/ I know that this girl has been through an awful lot for someone so young, and so I thank her for letting me spread the word; I've just spent half an hour looking at everything reblogged and written, and I'm in love with it!

http://jadeharmse.tumblr.com/ This blog is one of the funniest, most engaging things I've ever read; happily bookmarked so that I can read it over and over!

http://rhianvenning.tumblr.com/ Again, something beautiful posted continuously...every picture, mood, song, lyric, represents this girl perfectly. Read it!!!

http://mollynobbs.tumblr.com/ And a third time! A blog that truly shows off the author's skills at piecing together funny quotes, inspiring pictures and heartwarming posts to make something amazing, almost poetic. :)

http://www.boardskater.wordpress.com/ My brother's third attempt at a blog, this one is surely a winner...truly, an insight to a agrumpy teenager's mind!

This post took so long to write because I spent at least fifteen minutes on every single blog I promoted; all of them truly are amazing, individual and written with such emotion that it's impossible not to get drawn in. Thank you, everyone who still reads mine, and visits these ones.

19 November, 2011

Hell, we're all beautiful.

Okay. I didn't ask you to read this (For once) for the pageviews, I genuinely have something to say.

You see, the thing is, recently someone that I know has been on a steady downhill slope...for a couple of years now, a beautiful girl that I know through one of my best friends has been anorexic. This doesn't mean she's stupid, or conceited, it means that a stunning girl has been inflicted, most unfortunaely, with thinking that she isn't good enough. Pretty enough, clever enough, thin enough. So, she wanted to take control. And, that control comes through the only way she knows how; controlling her body. A steady line of scars and a thin layer of skin covering her bones is what she has to show for control. I'm not religious, but any higher power, please intervene.

She's getting better. Speaking. Menial conversations that occur millions of times a day, in hundreds of languages, all over the world, are being exchanged. They mean the world to my best friend; she told me about a recent conversation they'd had and there were tears in her eyes, she was so happy. And I was happy for both of them, it was the best thing I'd heard all week. Funny how much and how fast your perception changes according to the context, right?

I don't know her very well, and I wish, I wish I did because that's all people want; to make other people happy. And, it's not about anyone but her. I'm in love with this girl, and her beauty broke my heart, because everyone but her could see it. I hope, with all my heart, that this stunning, amazing, lovely girl gets better because that's by far everything she deserves; to live a happy, healthy, awesome life. My heart goes out to anyone else out there who feels the same or knows someone who's going through the same thing; I just want everyone to know that (screw the cliches) you're all, breathtakingly, heartbreakingly beautiful. Every single one of you. I don't care what you've done before, what you're doing now or what you're going to do; how you've looked/acted/spoken. Anything. You're all amazing. And never, ever take that for granted.

Bad things happen to good people. <3

14 November, 2011

The unadulterated lyrical genius of my best friend, Dudding.

Made purely of fridge-words, ladies and gentlemen...sit back and prepare to be intensely impressed.

My only hope is...
Me & you like ripe, silent moral...
I can not touch you, those who do slither.
I battle our noble corrupt haze.
We dream, and steal absent passion.
Nurture and flatter the soul...
False, dark desire.
Promise a Heavenly abyss, then depart, amid the forever swirling emotional jungle...
Adore, ignore, but cradle the radient, tumbling spawn.
Her slumbering star,
Mistaken and interrupted.
Do not forget any smile,
We remember it.
Whistle lyrical harmony of rewarded insanity.

Oh Dudding. <3

11 November, 2011

Where the kids are hot and the girls look slept-in.

This post is about my best friend.
The best thing that's ever happened to me.
The thing that keeps me grounded.
The one who makes me want to tear my hair out sometimes.
My sister.
My friend.
My other half.
My brain.
My conscience.
My thoughts.
My life.

That's the Truth- McFly
(Everything I Do) I Do It For You- Bryan Adams
Goodbye Yellow Brick Road- Elton John
Your Song- Ewan McGregor
Broad Daylight- Gabriel Rios
You Me At Six
Mayday Parade
Rolling In The Deep- Adele
The Wanderer- Jil Is Lucky
(yeah Millie...made a list of your favourite music, I remembered :))

Films and television;
Anything Disney
Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging
Moulin Rouge
Sweeney Todd
Paranormal Activity
Pulp Fiction
Kill Bill
Michael McIntyre
Numerous movie trailers on YouTube
Family Guy

Just kidding; she doesn't read.

Billie. Meth. Boobs. Cheeks. Shelf. Bethy. Brian. Stewie. Blondey. Possessive. Boo. Lee. Beth. Millie.

Blonde. Short. Loud. Funny. Quiet. Thoughtful. Caring. Kind. Amazing.

Beautiful. Adorable. Positive. Optimistic. Sensible. Fantastic. Perfect.

    • Come here, I need you so much. You're my best friend in the whole effing world and not a min ute goes by when I don't realise how lucky I am to have someone as amazing as you in my life. You're totally amazing in every single way possible and so, so so heartbreakingly beautiful. 'm typihg all this through blurred eyes on a keyboard really fast so forgive any spelling mistakes but, that's it/ ♥

  • Millie Stonebridge
    • Fuck me. oh my god, I fucking love you! :') thank you for that, literally tearing up!! :L you're the best friend I've ever bloody had, honestly can't believe I have something as perfect as you all for myself. You're so wonderful to me, I loved it in badminton today when we gave each other the cold shoulder but then we caught each others eyes and started smiling. You're incredible Beth Parker :):) I wish I was as poetic as you. ♥

Me and Millie? Well. If you managed to pin us down, and that's a BIG IF, then I'd say we're us. Just, one of those beautiful things that's made out of nothing and blossoms into something.

Millie Melissa Daisy Ann Kevin Harold Stonebridge, I love you from now 'till forever. AND BACK AGAIN, sistaaaaaaaar. <3

05 November, 2011

What do these mean?

If you want it, sing it loud.

There's so much going on in my life right now. Literally, mentally and, generally socially. I mean, school work, course work, homework, clubs, priorities, friends, relationships, the demise of relationships, staying up late, being tired, being sad, being wired, being happy, being ME. I love it, but at the same time I can feel people slipping away. I've changed a lot this year, and I don't think that most of it is bad, but I know that I've come to lose friends, and alienate people. Sometimes, I feel sorry for them, for myself and guilty, for not realising, and not trying harder. But, then, I think that, really, I haven't lost EVERYONE, so the people I have lost obviously don't want to try either. I just wish I didn't keep losing or forgetting the most important people/person/thing. It's odd. <3